Day 26th...

Honey ah... you are so so bad you know?
Completely 2 days  dont even text me ... why before you can spend money text with him and now you cant even spent 1 mess to send me that ya ok or ya missing me? I hoped, i had been waiting... Miss you so so much..
And now you again have to go away for 7 days.... such a long long time for me .... 7 days without talking to you would be like hell ................................................... I DONT WANT THIS T.T stay home mah ...
But anw, honey ah .... i think i will have to make a decision... A  decision that would be good for you...

Love you so much...

Day 25th

Day 25th...
Quite fast hah? Almost one month we have this already nah :D
Today ya went to your grand parents' house hah? Bad June... i feel so jealous when he is always your everything... even every decision you make you fave to consider about him... and now... even wherever you go... you still need to contact him... not me?

Am i still some where in your heart?
Tell you this nah... Ya always in mine <3

Today, im a really lazy Kent! Stay on bed and in my room the whole day... i think god knows it would be a sad day for me so he make it rained today ... Cold and wet... both me and weather... miss you!!

Love you ...

Day 24th...

Honey ah ....
Today i really start to confuse so much about us... what should i do now? ...

It's a boring day that i just know my dad got an accident and now he's in the hospital... no ones home tell me... thank god that i talked to my nephew... I feel lonely now nah ... where are you?

My today is really dark...

Love you...

Day 23th...

Honey ah ...
Tell ya about my today hah... You are so bad that just go away and dont talk to me like that... you know how much i love you and miss you? I waited for ya...
Other things are ok... i had my second accounting class and i set a rule for us... who lose in a bet will have to buy snack for the whole class:D Im smart hah! like this i wont be bankrupt as you always say :p
Im still a little bit headache and sorethroat nah... but im ok ^^
Miss you ....
How about your today?

Love you so much!...

Day 22th...

Honey...
 i guess i cant do it again hah... when in the morning when i woke up... i saw your message with your voice text... it's just so so cute that i cant resist it.... In front of you... i always become so so soft ...
Anw ... so good to start a day like that ... warm in heart ...
1 week ya home hah? Miss me? still love me like before? i shouldnt ask hah... you now would better be with him ... he can take care of you ... while i cant...

Abt my today hah... my tutor lesson was awesome today hah :> i got all girls in class ;;)
but just they are not as pretty as you ... or because i love you so much that no one can be more beautiful than you in my eyes? anw =.= to teach girls about computer was really horrible :|
I got headache nah ... sore throat as well ... but dont worry hah:> im still good to work hard on our dreams!

Love you so much!

P.s: I miss you...

Day 21th...

Honey ah...

I miss you so so much...

Tell you a little bit about my today hah...im getting busy now so i will just write really short hah...

Today the only special thing to me is I first become a tutor in accounting:>
I got 5 girls and 2 boys in my class... and the first thing when i come in the room is " wow, we got a really cute teacher " =.= And after that they really made me become cute by being cute them self :|

And really ... i think i should walk away from ya hah... if love for you is just a hormone that last 3 months only then .... i guess i would have to let that 3months earlier .... so that you can be happy over there with your "family" ...

I just love you so much... and what i learned is that... sometimes love is not only fight to be with someone... sometimes we need to see that if you can make that someone happy or not? and are you the right one .... 

i have to let you choose hah... make you decision to choose the right one... or treat the wrong one in the right  way ...
Hope that one day you will follow your heart than to consider it as a hormone...

Love you!

Day 20...

Day 20...
Honey ah... why do i feel like ya so far recently?
Tell me it isnt so hah... tell me it is just because i think so... just because we dont have a love of time together hah....
Today you went out with him hah... So i think from now on you two will warm up your love hah...
Will there be a chance for me?
Nvm hah... as long as you are happy then i will be happy as well! I wont let you see crying Kent anm nah:D I will keep all the hurt inside and watch ya happy beside him as a closed friend hah....
Hope that you still consider me important somewhere inside your heart or your head...
My today is quite boring honey ah .... Class home class home class.... nothing to do for me i guess... miss you so so much... what should i do?

Miss you so much....

Love!!!!!

Day 19...

Day 19...
I hate today really ....
I didnot tell you this hah... I cried twice today... First time is by tiwi, when she keep asking me about you... she ask me about him ... it hurts me so so much ... and all i can tell her is that now you are not here anymore... so i have to let you go then... at least he can take care of you hah... when i have to stay here... far away from you ... cant do anything for you ... or if there is something then it is just something to hurt you .... and i hurt me as well...
Honey ah ... live happily ... for me as well hah...
Really miss your bunny face :)

About my today hah? All i can say is work work work.... so so busy today that i couldnt even have lunch =.=

And ya? How was your day...

Dont know when will you come back to our secret to answer me... miss you here as well....

Love you, my honey!

Day 18th

Honey ah ...
I hate you!!
You know since the moment i step on the train to Lausanne... it's like everything just came back to me at the same time.... all our memories from sitting on the train, then bus to work, then work down the hill, the walk to work, work together, leave together and have night meal together... i really miss these day...
You know what? the whole today... i desire to see you.... i desire to have you by my side... I want you to be there till i die...
Anw, after a long time, first day working there was quite exhausted... i cant feel my legs now nah T.T beside missing you the whole day, i also looked for you the whole day... whatever i did, i still used my eyes on searching you *wink* i think for now, it's a habbit of me *smile*

I really miss and love you....

P.s: The feeling inside my heart is much much more than this... but there is always something we can both feel hah  :)

You know... for me, one day without saying "i love you" is so so long ....

Day 17...

Day 17 hah...
Today is the first day after we "break up" as what you said.... For me really, it's a delay cuz i always hope that i could be again beside you :)
Honey ah... my days without you is so so boring.... i cant deny the fact that i still love you... still holding the phone and wait for your message....
You do say that you love me right? then i will wait until that day comes.... when you and me, we will have the best time ever of our life... you have your sweetest guy ever and i have my dearest girl ever...
We will deeply fall in love and nothing can seperate us by then...
This time, this distance will be an instrument that make you realize your love for me... or make you realize that you dont love me.... i dont know:) But i wont give up on us, i will still hope.

Abt my day? Borin... i really tried to have a lot of activities that could make me relax.... and i got the relaxation but still with you in my head.... thinking of you really make me smile, taking to you make me feel warm in my heart and have a sense of safety somehow...

I let you free... so i guess all your heart now is on him hah.... he is really a lucky guy... im jealous... i always hope that it's me and you who have the relationship for that long.... i really hope that it's me who you gonna spend time with, going out with, say sleep tight with a big kiss and 3 magical words every single night....

But i guess so far, im not the man , your heart is missing .... that's why you go away ... i know :)

Love you so so so much!
And i miss you.... i miss us!

Day 16th

Day 16 ...
I guess from today i will try to write this to you earlier, honey hah :)
I will try to write this before you go to sleep everyday that i can ....

 You seem to have a really nice day hah ...

Its good to know that ya fine with all of that now... i know you need time to get use to it...
but at least... ya still fine with him ... even though it hurts me more than i thought.... i really cant think of anything after that....
But honey ah ... i said that i will accept hah? Then i will accept ... i wont mention anything about me in you in our conversation anymore... keep that only in our secret since it is our secret... share me everything as a best friend hah? For now i guess that is the only way that i can still stay beside you...
But in here, to me, you will still be my sweetest, dearest girl friend hah *wink* I can see that from now on... you wont be able to text with me like before... i waited for ya the whole day... now i clearly see the feeling... this would be the only form of communication that i could reach you somehow hah...

So about my day? Havent ended yet but i think it will be boring again ...
So far all i do is almost the same as yesterday... run in the morning, went to classes, had lunch, class again =.= Nothing really happen to me since ya left....

I really miss you ... but only here hah ...
I love you ... but wish all the best for you and him ...

P.s: still let me call you honey here hah... <3

Day 15th...

Day 15th...
So now you are home hah? We are so far again ... and even further than before.... How do you feel about this distance? The furthest distance that we've ever had right?.... Me... So unhappy and i cant get use to it!
I miss the feeling when you around me.... I miss the feeling when i can touch you, make you smile and see it shines... I miss the feeling when we walk around together and have fun ... and most... i miss the feeling when i hear you whisper those 3 magical words into my ear... Until now... that moment still remain clearly in my head... whenever i close my eyes... i can see it, really :)

Honey ah ... do you remember anything about our dreams? We will have a small family, in a small house with a big big garden. We will plant flowers around, have the swings for us and for our kids ... we will also have a secret house where we could spend our time together without being disturb by our kids *wink* We will have  a big son and two little daughters... and some pets as well hah :)
I miss all these memories of us ... these moments, we are like a happy couple hah *smile*

But i can see .... you are now starting to step away from me .... no more "honey" part inside the sleep tight .... to be honest .... i didnot expect that ....

Anyway, be happy hah, now you are with your family, with your home .... you can eat familiar chinese food again, live a familiar chinese life, enjoy all what is familiar to you .... and moreover, you will be with "him" as well *smile* be happy hah! you know i always want to see your smile mah :)
<Do me a favor hah .... tell me when you meet him ... and also, tell me if he hurts you or do something that make you unhappy! I will do everything to make you mine then! >

Now is a few things about my today hah... I woke up in the morning with my eyes couldnt open *shame* i think you know why ( i cried last night mah .... and i drank as well ... but not a lot )... then i run around the lake cuz i dont have class in the morning.... then went back, take shower, read today's lessons then go to school. Classes today are boring.... French class had nothing new, Human Resource was a little bit fun but i cant smile (_ _")
Since ya left switzerland, it was raining all the time.... the rain, as you know abt me, pull my mood down a lot .... after finishing the classes, i went to the lake with an umbrella, stood there and recall our memories... they are all beautiful, ya agree?
Then i went back to school, borrow a classroom, prepare for tomorow and also next week tutor's lessons.
I keep staying there until now, when i'm writing all of this for us <3 After this i will go back to my apm and sleep i guess ...
(Just need to add one more thing... the whole day i hold the phone on my hand and wait for you to inform me)
My day is quite boring now hah ....
Tell me about your day soon hah:) I would love to hear from you ...

Honey ah .... Just let me call you honey, honey hah? you will be my only honey, also the only one that im gonna call "honey" ....

I miss you ... miss you like crazy now ... if you dont mind ... tell me if you miss me as well hah *wink*

For sure ya sleeping now .... so if ya wake up and read this, i sent you a big big warm hug for the first new day home ( if you accept ) avec grand amour hah ....
Remember this nah, wherever you wake up and whenever, wake up with a smile on your lips hah! That would be the best way to start a new day, a good motivation to deal with difficulties!

I love you! ( I will always end our secret by saying this! )

Day 14th....

So it has been two weeks since i first wrote our secret...
I guess it will be also an end for our "couple time" hah?
From now on, let me call this "the hard time part of our fairy tale" honey hah?
Today, let me cry honey nah.... from tomorrow i will keep my deal with you... but today let me cry ...
We both cried today mah.... i guess til now you felt something right? And i believe that those three words really come from deep inside your heart ... cuz it touched mine ... i had been waiting for these words for so so long ...
You are so so bad you know? why until the last moment you say so? What were you waiting for? and Why?
But anw... thank you so much for finally tell me that ... to be honest ... i was quite surprised when you whispered that onto my ear.... Wish that i could hear that everyday ... ( Just wish ... i know my wishes never come true anw ... lol )
So what now? i have to text you less right? have to step one step back right? yup... i guess i will :) but it does not mean i will stop loving you hah ... i will still love you, still wait for your message all day and night ... i know you will spend time on your family, your "him" ... but sometimes give me a few moments honey hah?

I love you and i will always do!
Let me stop here hah ... i cant see anything now ...

Day 13th ...

Listen to this song again hah ...
Almost 2 weeks hah ....
Why dont we think of somethink like this earlier hah? So that we can share our moments here earlier....
So last night in swiss already hah? Last night that i have the feeling of having you so so close hah?
Really i dont want this to happen .... I m writing this while i cant see anything with my eyes because of bad tears dont listen to me .... i m writing this while i have to wait for you facing with him (fact) .... while my heart is screaming and my eyes are wet.... You are now so close to me ... but soon ... it will be so far ....
I decided to spend my whole tonight for you ... since i couldnt make it close to you, i have to stick to my phone to text with you ... but the more i stick to it ... the faster i feel the time pass by ... ya seem to be busy tonight ...
Tell you a little bit about my today hah? I woke up quite early to day, 5h45 ... then i walk around til 7h30 ... go home, sit and do nothing until i have to go to school.. Classes are boring, or at least to me, i didnt spend a lot of attention on lessons... all in my mind is you ... People are right when saying that the closer to the day you let someone go, the clearer you know how much you love that someone hah? I dont know how you feel .... but to me it perfectly fits... I ... just love you so so much ...
I was quite happy when i went to see ya! So happy to be with you ( this sentence i said a lot hah, dont get bored! ) And we made it, 32 kg or less hah ... we some how save for you 300CHF <3 no, you save yourself 300CHF, i helped nothing but disturbing you *Shame*
Then i have my presentation which the lecturer can easily says our group is the most professional group today cuz the others are so so suck =.= all they do is read what they copied from online sources.
After that i went and sit again by the lake side ... (you can guess where hah *wink* )
In the eve, i was so happy when i asked you what would be your plan for tonight and you said to stay home and chat with me ... so so happy really ... eventhough it was not what happened but still you spend time for me ^^
So ... that's my today in general ... tell me your "today" if you read it today or just tell me about your " today " at the time you read this hah!

Miss you right now ... a lot ....

Love you so so much!

P.s: Tomorow ... all the time will be ours, honey hah!

Day 12th

Day 12th ... What a day with so many feelings for us, right honey?Love, happiness, sad, stick, etc.
First thing to say is ya so cute when ya sleep, but i hate your sleeping habit T.T only wanna hug the wall :( leave me alone and cold on the other side of the bed ... But anyway, the feeling of waking up beside you is still so awesome!! Do you feel it? ( typical question hah ) ...

And then is ... our crying time hah ... again, today .... i saw you cry ... sorry honey hah ... that was all my fault ... i cried ... i made you cry ... but you know? That moment i feel really really painful in my heart... i really dont want you to leave ... not even just a little bit ... i just want you to stay here with me, enjoy our days together like we always did ... 

After that we had a bad lunch hah? Except for the sea food salad then the others are so so suck =.= And honey! i know you dont trust me, and you also dont trust your self ... but honey ah ... if there is still even 1% faith on me from you, i will still put all my faith on you! All my love as well ! I will try to make our dreams, our family come true ... of course if we have a chance:)
And if you wanna comment something, from now on, you are only allowed to comment positive thing! I dont want you to thing negative about your life.... as well as about us! So instead of these negative thing that you had in your mind today, think of the brighter day that we would have, honey hah:)
When i sit with you waiting for the train to Leysin, i also feel really sad... i dont want you to go there, cuz anyway, our time is now limited ... i only want to keep ya beside... But i learned of a new way to love someone. You can guess what it is?

Tell you about me when you leave hah ... at came back home, sit on the bed .... watch your stuff .... watch our vids and pics .... play guitar again as you were there .... miss you and wait for your text .... For the first time of my life .... i was not in the mood of eating.... still normal food ... but i just sadly look at them then walk away ... the only thing that i eat is yogurt but your style ( with honey and cereal, banana ) and a glass of medicine...

And right now at the moment ... i'm missing you so much....

I started to borrowed a class room to study from today... Gotta keep myself busy to achieve our dreams hah. Anw, seems like someone is now really busy up there hah :)

I love you!

Day 11th ...

Sorry for writing this quite late hah...
Really ... it was wonderful ... and i think our day we spent all our day together so there's nothing much to say hah....

I love all the time we spend together <3 just that short hah ... cuz ya know how i feel these day mah ...

Love you so so much....

Day 10th

Another day passed by hah ...
I hate to count these days like this you know ... i feel like time is now really against me ... i dont wanna say goodbye *wronged*
About my today hah? I always in the mood of waiting til the time to meet you you know? I dont know if ya have the same feeling or not but i really wait for ya....
Classes are ok. Nothing special really happen.... or may be some happened but my mind was with you the whole time so i really dont know :p
And as i told ya, i had been waiting ya the whole day long... that's why i said that 20 mins was really really long ....

And then again... when we were together ... everything was wonderful hah:D i never want to end our time beside each other ...

Wish that i could freeze the time...

Love and miss you!

Day 9th

Tah tah ^^
Really feel ya closer now you know?
Actually i should have slept hah ... but i suddenly remember that i didnt write something for ya, so i again woke up, turned on my laptop and ... im writing this for you nah *joyful*
How was your today? I guess it was quite bored hah? I know cuz ... so am i (_ _")
Couldnt make it to see you make me so so down and i think ya down as well hah ... I really want to eat that beef tarta *starving*
Tell you a little bit about my today hah ( or should i say yesterday? )
Miss you from the morning til the afternoon, from the moment i open my eyes in the morning til i close it again at night...
Today is the heaviest day of the week... but it's just week 2 so to me it's still quite sleepy ... especially the computer class. we have a new lecturer this year, but he's too kind and too too careful that he teach so so slow and just make me feel asleep=.= all the thing he tought us in 2 hours i could finish it in 2 mins=.=
Microeconomics again is a good one:> kinda like this class and the way the lecturer think. somehow i find it similar to myself :>
And the banquet meeting then i told you hah.... hate them so so much that held the meeting today ... make me have to stay and couldnt come to see you ....

So saturday is our last day together hah ... i dont know but sometimes today i feel like i was lost somewhere .... anw, i have a plan for us on saturday... hope ya gonna enjoy it with me hah :*
I read you stuff ... Im not enjoying my life here anw =.= All i do is what i have to do, finish it fast then turn my head to you... if you really think that i can forget ya soon soon after you leave me then you were wrong, honey ah ... But it also means that you will forget me when you come back right?
Btw, i know when was the last time you feel jealous nah :-" I didn't mean that i have to cook because of her=.= i mean she is the kitchen chef, and she knows that i can cook:| plus that im the only one who she can talk to=)) the rest in kitchen team are ... chinese ...

Love you! Kiss kiss hug hug.
< Guess ya sleeping now hah? then i dont  need to ask for permission now *wink* Hug ya tight nah >

>>>>>:D<<<<<<

Day 8th

Day 8th hah ....
Today will be just a short note hah? Cuz basically i told ya everything when we were together ....

Really miss ya when ya not around ... and really ... can you feel it? The feeling when we are together? Happy, warm, etc. All these miracle feelings will come to us whenever we see each other, right?

Hope that you feel the same.
So so good to be beside you again <3

Love you so so much!

Day 7th

Day 7th nah ...

Today was so so fucked up >"< The schedule is so so stupid honey ah.... have class from 8-10 then break until 15-17 >"< and have to have lunch at 11h30 so i cant come home in that break :( Spent the whole break in the library and ... miss you ...

I miss the time we spent together in the Library de Lausanne ...

Do you remember all of these?

Beside that time ... classes and life was going normal ... nothing special happened to me ... No, infact there was :D you texted me <3 as always, im so so happy to see the text from you... gotta say, i had been waiting for it all the time *shy* ... though it was not so good ... quite down when ya not having a good time over there... guess that just because i am not there with you hah *wink*, that's the reason you feel bored hah *clap*

And you know, my absent at the Vietnamese meeting make it became a mess lol... now clearly they devided into 2 big group *akward hah* ... haizzz ...

Finally... being with you is still the happiest time that i've ever had ...

I really miss you, my sweetie!

Love you! 

Come back with me soon hah ...

Day 6th

Another day wake up having you in my arms ... so so relaxful and comfortable...
You are a lazy cat today hah :p but i love you for that as well ... love the way you call me "honey", love the way you insist me to let you continue sleeping ... "15 mins more nah, honey" ... " come closer nah "... " Hand! Hold me nah " ... so so so cute  <3 especially they came out from you with a unresistable sweet voice <3
Really hate ya when ya put all of these make up things on my face you know T.T they made me look so ... GAY *puke*
What next? Special even on the train comes with the period-ache hah? lol, that will really be our secret hah *wink* but you still need to bribe me something to keep my mouth shut! *tricky*
Time was getting more narrow when we got to the hostel hah ... really felt like gotta go really far away from you ... Remember the moment at the train station? Really dont wanna let your hand go ... just want to hold it tight and kiss you more:p
The way back was really long... The longest way back i've ever had i guess *wronged* Miss ya the whole long way... kept looking into my phone and see when i would have 3G to text with you ... so so long T.T

Just want to let you know ... I MISS YOU!!

Love you more than yesterday <3

Day 5th

Day 5th

Did ya sleep tight, my honey? I did! The feeling when holding you sleep, wake up beside you and seeing you sleep are all undescribable ... Have i ever told ya that ya really like an angel when you sleep? That wonderful moment, i will never ever forget it! They are something more than words... And i think one day... One day you will feel it... Or you felt it but you did not tell me :p

We again had a good time today hah? Walking together ( hand in hand hah ), sitting on the train, playing games, visiting the castle, being prince and princess by sitting on a carriage... So close right?

But one more time ... "him" ... i have to see you text him ... see you holding the phone waiting for his message ... annouced him wherever you go or whatever you do ... That's SAD ... and to be honest... im JEALOUS :) I really want to have the same :p

Anw, im happy with what i have now:) I will always get your back, stay by your side ... Just dont get me wrong and forget me hah, HONEY :)

Love you!

Day 4th

We had a really nice eve yesterday hah:)
I always want to have a life like that you know? Hand holding, walking around, talking, sharing ... Things go softly and tenderly ... just simple as we did :)
I was so so excited to go to Munich with ya... almost cant sleep because of that *shy* ... Woke up early, running around awhile to prepare *wink* catched the train to Lausanne to do early shoping for my princess ... then take her to the train station and enjoy the trip:)
Last trip together, Last trip spending time together hah...
We walked, Talked, Cooked, Had fun, Watched movies, Slept .... Everything went awesome to me... Except for one thing... him...

But i have to accpet everything if i want to be with you hah? I accepted it... but you know? My heart still get hurt... That pain is growing bigger and bigger, when "that day" come closer....

Still love ya so!

3rd day

Today i will write this a lil bit earlier hah :p cuz im gonna be with you soon soon <3 and now im so so excited!!
You know why? Today is the first time ever you say "I miss you" to me, without being asked for it, without being threaten by me, without a push from me...
To me, it's totally a suprised, an amazing feeling when i read that you know? You make my heart beat, and also stop it at the same time ... You are so AWESOME, my SWEETIE *kiss kiss*
My today is quite normal... guess that i already got used to the fact that im now back to school... just one thing i cant get use to it is that im no longer stay "10-mins-walk" away from you...
But today i wake up and read the mess, ya so cute :D ya like dancing and running around when i slept and ya cant, have that imagine inside my mind and feel so so warm...
Cant wait to see how's your today hah :p guess it's gonna be another lazy cat day *wink*

Im coming to you <3

 Wait for me hah, honey <3
XoxooxoOXO

2nd day

Another day ended hah ...
Today we had an wonderful start, agree?
" when i wake up, hope you are here by my side " ...
That feeling followed the whole day you know? It made me couldnt wait to see ya in the evening... And once more, i love all moments that we spent together! They really make my heart beat!
Wish that everyday we will have the same feeling ... <3 Really warm and happy hah :)

Tell ya a little bit abt my day hah?
Thank to you that i could get to school on time=.= All classes were so so nice, i dont know why but i feel like today i was really in a good good mood to do whatever i want<3 except for one thing ... i slept anytime that i could, even 1 min *lol* ...
I thought i could come to you earlier today (_ _") sorry for making you have to wait for so so long hah ... But that group meeting was horrible=.= completely a mess :| cant get to the same direction T.T hope that things will get better hah *wink*

Miss you...
And love you a lot, my honey *kiss*

1st day...

So i start our secret from today hah :)
First day we are far away ... at least further than 10mins walk ( feeling hah )
The feeling is diffirent right? Especially when we just back from our wonderful holiday with so so many fun :)
The whole eve, all i did was to look at your lovely pics and miss you...

Remember you agree with me that you will tell me when you miss me hah! i will wait for that :)

Just be honest with me:)

P.s: Everyday i will write a short note like this ... it doesn't mean i dont have anything to say, it is just i save it to write everyday ^^
Love ya!