Honey ah...

Wondering if ya read our fairy tales or not... but if you read it then i hope you understand my heart hah:)
I know you are strong, i know you are a special girl:) You will always success wherever you go and whatever you do:) That's what i always believe <3
It has been a long time since you last work so you need time to carry on and get used to it :) You will find another me there ^^ Someone who can push you up like i did in carousel :)
YOU CAN DO IT!!
YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT !!
It sounds really boring for you hah... but yup... that's what i will always tell you and believe so :)
It's now a tough time^^ i will be there for you!

Love you more and more :)

T.T

BAD JUNE!!
DONT EXPECT IM GONNA BE GOOD WITH YOU EASILY!
I HATE THIS!!!!
ENJOY YOUR MALDIVES YOURSELF HAH!!!!

Ble ble!!
Silly you!
I talked to you cuz i already cant stop talking anymore... but you are worst! keep treating me like that, YOU will lose me soon! No matter how much i love you!!












































T.T
Still love you more somehow ... *wronged*

:)

One more hour before your arrival in Maldives hah...
You will have a busy life over there for sure :)
Hope that you will always be strong and happy:) I know you can do it! There's nothing you cant do! Cuz you are the girl that i love, and to be loved by me, that girl should be really special *wink*

Welcome to Maldives honey hah >:D<

...

So today you flight away hah...
Guess that you cried a lot hah?...
but to be honest... i hate seeing you cry... that's so hurt to see that you know?
Safe flights honey nah :)
Hope that you will have a nice life over there, in that Maldives paradise:)

Please forgive me... i cant stop loving you...

Day 82nd..

Honey...
Base on how you treat me today... you seem really enjoy your spaces now right? ... i've been waiting... i thought somehow you will talk to me soon... but im not that important for you to keep holding on:) i guess it was an end for "us" right?
What i was afraid that it would happen happened... have a good life hah!
I really dont know what else to say... :)

So finally, til now, the fairy tale end as you want it to be hah... an unhappy ending... your wishes always come true :-?? Not like me hah:)

Anw, somehow, you have your happy ending mah:) that's enough:)
I am happy to see you happy with him:)

Love you more...
This will close our fairy tale hah? I guess...
Somewhere deep inside me... really hope that one day i can still come back and continue writing this fairy tale:)

Goodbye, my sweetest girlfriend ever:)

Day 81st...

HONEY!!!
WHAT TAKES YOU SO LONG??
Is it that easy for you? Dont you feel the same as me?
I hold the touch in my hand for the whole day... and just hope that some thing from you pop up...
i know ya having a good time home but dont let me down... i am important somehow to you right?

Love you...

Day 80th...

Bad June...
You know me mah, right? You said those words to me in the airport then prove it to me..
I will wait for your return...
I believe you will come back to me one day... Be strong and face it...

Whatever happen between us, i will still love you more!

Day 79th..

2am...
Finally i finish my project with my lovely team <3
Anw... lol hah? Again i can not leave you... you always know how to get me back... or i just can not resist your charm at all...
I am sorry for saying these words hah... you know that you are out of my league mah... it's not that you dont deserve my love... it's about ya out of my reach ...:) Anw... you were really bad since ya treat me like that... you put me behind everything.... that makes me sad ...

Still love you more than yesterday ..

Day 77th and 78th...

Honey ah... not again?
Why ... time after time...? It's all my fault again right? Yup... i guess that's what you think now... you dont need a bad Kent anymore, it seems...
You remember what we said when we cant be together? What comes will come... We will see where it will be then hah... anw... what comes came... we have to deal with it hah...
Moreover... if i keep on hoping that you will come to me... then it also means that you will break up with him... it's too selfish right? in someway... i cant let it happens... i cant break your heart or your happiness... you are so happy now that you dont want to leave anymore... you went out with his family even.... Really when you tell me that... to be honest... i cant bear that pain...
Anw, since you tell me you went to Leehom concert... and you still remember my song... i was so happy at that moment:) And since that time till now... i tell you my music list that i listen everyday hah:
-The first morning ... this song makes me remember about the time that i woke up and saw you were there.. next to me... those were the best days ever in my life.. And do you remember our first morning? The moment that i miss the most is when i stood by the window... you came, talked and then hold me from behind... love that hug...
-Tong hua ... you understand this two words more than me hah? FAIRY TALE... Our time we had together... it was really a beautiful Fairy tale .
-By my side... Remember that day? In that stage... i played this song for you, for only you... my eyes locked on yours and i gave you all my heart... Afterward... somehow we are so close right? remember on the bus i ask if you were happy, and you said " for always when i am with you "... i miss that moment so much... you know that you held my hand so so tight like a kid dont want to lose something? That was really sweet and i cant forget that day...
-You dont know me ... You said you like this song when i play it right? So do i... i love to play it for you...
-Endless love ( chinese one hah:p) ... It is what it means ...

Find it similar somehow?... I do... i know they make me crazy for you somehow... but i keep me moving...
Really hope that one day you will come back to our secret... read it once... so you may know how much i love you... you may know that i am still waiting for you... you may know that i am always watching ya...
The Fairy Tales now i cant write anymore... but i hope it's not ended yet hah... cuz this is where we love, where we raise our love... or i raise my love... so it wont stop here... it is just continue writing for itself hah:)

Love you more and more...

Day 77th..

Honey ah.... It's 3am now... but i cant close my eyes... i dont know why but i just think of you all the time and i cant sleep ...

Promise me you will read our secret at least once again hah? So that you will know how much i love you...

Really have a lot of things in my mind now that i want to tell you... and i just dont know where to start... Miss you so much...

Anw, ya hate to change things around you hah... but you changed yourself on the way of behaving toward me... Sadly, it's a negative way... ya spending less time on me now.... seems like the only time that you gonna text me is when you get to bed and about to sleep, after finishing with him... Anw, everyday i wait for these moment... unfortunately, it doesnt last so long...

Do i have to face the truth that you dont love me anymore?

....

Still love you more than yesterday >:D<

Day 76th..

Nothing much to say today...
You went to the concert with him and his family....
I dont know what to say now... I guess there will be no more chance for me right? I never think about you and him with his family that close... I'd better leave... i know you want to keep me by your side as a friend... but you know? That's really selfish!!! YOU KNOW THAT I CANT STOP LOVING YOU MAH!!!!!!!!!!
i really dont know ... what should i do now????????
Hurt...
But still love you more than yesterday....

Day 75th

Dear Honey...

Today i was so so dead lol... i spend almost my whole day on bed :D Really dont know why, just feel like i completely can not do anything... but i spent 1 hour 30 mins at the lake side... that was so cold... and i remember your warmth more... and i think of so many of our memories...  and i realized that i am the coward one... i could not face so many truth...

Even now when you wake up... there is no more me inside your head... sad hah :)

Anw, bad June... you see? Since i stopped asking you... you never tell me anything... just like you ask and i answer... and i want to talk you more... cuz i miss you and love you more and more everyday... and i cant get you out of my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Once again... love you more than yesterday <3

Send ya a big hug hah >:D<

Day 74th..

...
How can you be so so beautiful like that? You make me feel like you and me are beauty and the beast nah ...
You know how i feel when i see you pic? Omg... She's amazing... and you are totally out of my league ...
But why dont you send me more pics nah T.T I want moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... But somehow i feel jealous again ... you know why? I wont tell you hah *chuckle*, you know it yourself mah ^^

Anw, that's my only special thing that brighten my life today...

Love you more than yesterday :) <3

Day 73rd

My lazy cat nah >:D<

A boring day again ... but anw you saved day one more time :D so so good to talk to you ...>:D< But do you feel any different from my side? i changed hah.... in fact.. i tried my best not to ask you a lot ... anw, i will let you show yourself to me whenever you want hah >:D< And if you really love me, i guess you will be a good lover to me!

Love you more than yesterday <3

Day 72th

Happy bday to you, my sweetest girl friend ever <3 or let me say me sweetest lover, honey hah :p

Remember there was one day you told me so? I was so happy that moment >:D<

Do you remember we celebrated our birthday together? So dont bother if you have no cakes or candle hah?
Face the truth first... you were not here... we cant be together on this day... sorry for that honey hah... In face, i hope you had a nice birthday with him, with your family and you friends... it was a special birthday home anyway mah, you have to be happy and think brighter hah? Everything about you is special! EVERYTHING! Just like you are my everything nah >:D<

Do you remember what we did together? Remember about our dreams? A little bit? If yes then i will add something one it now hah:D
We will celebrate our day, all special day in the secret place honey hah? We will go our together like everyday of our lives, do shopping, cook and then enjoy our foods together, of course only two of us in the small little woody house i will make for only two of us at the place we chose when we were on the cruise hah:p

Today there's only one wish i will wish for you is that you will always be happy! No matter what or who will bring that happiness to you, as long as they make you happy, i will be grateful for them all because of making you smile happily!

Love you more than yesterday >:D<

A little gift for you nah... hope that you will like it... the only thing i can give you while we are apart...

Day 71...

Honey!!!!
Happy birthday by Chinese time hah >:D<
Love you love you so so much...

I have a lot of present for you nah... but i will upload it tomorrow by swiss time hah, in your real bday in my time:p

So happy to talk to you today like all the time:p you talked like a real princess again and i love it! Once again i feel that we were so close again<3

Do you remember the day we celebrated our bday? I do, and that was the sweetest bday i've ever had >:D<

Love you more than yesterday!!

Day 70th...

Honeyyyyyyyyyy!!

I love you:p
really i cant leave you *wronged*... i dont know why but i just cant do it... it's too hard for me i guess...
You are my everything now.... you r my strength for me to keep holding on... Love you more and more...

Few more hours hah... enjoy the last day of you 22 honey hah... ( im writing in chinese time hah)

Love you more than yesterday..
So great to talk to you again<3

Day 69th ...

So honey ah...
I guess that's it hah? ...
....
No, i wont say anything today... i will still wait til your birthday ... celebrate it and then i will finish hah...

so today...
I still love you more than yesterday...

Day 68th...

Honey ah ...
Im really not in the mood today... sorry for what i've done...
A dark day for us right?
....

Still love you more than yesterday...

Day 66th and 67th...

Honey ah... Sorry for not writing anything yesterday hah...
As you know hah, yesterday was the promotion day of our banquet so i really dont have much time to take care of our secret :p
http://vkhanijou.wix.com/007banquet
Copy that link and you might be able to see the video that i had made for the promotion day hah:D About the glasses flash mob, sorry ... but none could record that:( We made it to surprise people and to catch other's attentions so no one could record that:(
there was also a dance of the whole class but i cant find anyway to let you see nah:( i will try my best but im no so sure hah...
How was your days? Anw, thanks for talking to me normally yesterday hah, you gave me strength again..
But after yesterday, i was completely dead...  sleep in classes lol ... but i got 90% overall nah:D Thank god that i still get honour lol...

Anw... I will be silient for few days hah ... since you always leave without telling me a word... you know that i always want to talk to you right? Then why you just left without telling me a word? I wanted to tell you so many things ... but since ya disappear... i will do it too...

Love you more than yesterday!
Bonus for ya nah:D Here's banquet manager and the guy who do a lot of things with me ^^

Day 65th...

Honey ...
I know when you wake up today... you will feel really upset and hurt... so do i... since the moment you tell me that "he will be my man"... i was just out of control ... totally... It hurts and so sad...
Anyway, you have to be happy with him hah? You have to smile for always you know? Cuz you finally made  up your mind, finally get rid of me :)
Today was a long long and sad day... i woke up disappointed... had to run to much... and then end it also in a negative way... i will be strong and carry on!
As i told you hah... i will chase you next life... no matter how far we are, i will make you fall in love with me, be my girl friend, then be my wife, then give birth to our child and make all of our dreams come true...
I love you... but i have to leave you now ... be with me is not good for you at all... since i always make ya confuse, always mess things around you up...

If someone records what we are going to do tomorrow, i will put it here for you to see how good am i hah:) Our Fairy Tale became my Fairy Tale only from now on... i guess...

Love you more than yesterday...

Day 64th...

Honey ah ... even im in a busy week i will still try to write something for us hah:)

You know what... i cut my hand today because i miss you too much nah :( i dont know why but when doing paper craft.. i suddenly think of ya...
I hope when you come back to read all of these entry.... you will read it really as my girlfriend... so that this blog will truly become what it should be... a fairy tale for 2 of us...
Anw, we had come up with so much ideas for the up coming promotion day :D But we have to be quick because too much idea but not much time to prepare:( I will try to send you the video i have made hah:) And if possible, also some videos of that day as well:D
How was your day anw? I miss you too much... but really, today i tried to text you less... you know why? I want you to miss me ... to wait for me as well ... since from the beginning of our love, i was always the one who wait for ya haha *chuckle*

Anw... sorry for not texting you much today hah... it doesnt mean i want to be cold to you... i will always be the place where you can find warmth nah :D

Love you more than yesterday!

Day 63rd...

Honey ah...
Today is my trial cooking day and ya so so bad:( Ya dont even remember it hah... to you it's like a normal day only i guess...
I miss you the whole time in the kitchen ... do you miss me somehow? i think of ya while making the soup and the chicken nah:D And you are the inspirations to my dishes:D
And tell you this hah... they all like my plates:D kekekee, im happy with that:D And the class told me that the one who will be my wife for sure will be really happy :D all i can think of at that time is you :p
And one more thing hah.... today it seems like you have no interest at me and my cooking a lot hah... and also you dont even tell me about your day... But anw, i told ya i wont ask ever again so i will not :)

Love you more than yesterday nah<3

Day 62nd...

A big disappointed...
You know what? i really feel down down when you tell me that... You know why i ask you about your day mah? It's not that i want you to report me anything... i dont need that, you do whatever you want anw, i never force ya to do any thing right? So that question is just something that i use for us to talk more!! Cuz you know why? Since ya came back to China, you r so cold to me! You talk to me less and less... you care for me less and less as well... What i want is to be with you, to share with you... to give you as much time as i can... I know for now im nothing to ya but it doesnt mean we're stop loving each other!!....
And if ya stop loving me already then please tell me... so that i will set ya free from my heart...
And i cant even shout at you... that's why i chose to be silent for a while... anw you have to sleep mah, right?
I always be there for ya, always got your back... but how can i do it if ya push me away?

Still a magic for ya today hah? Even it seems to be too unreal for you or whatever...
Im whispering onto your ears when ya sleep nah: "I love you honey ah:), See ya in our dreams hah, where we belong together ..."

This is magic today but it's also what i do everyday to keep my heart loving you :) Whispering to myself and hope it's gonna come to your ears...

Love you more than yesterday<3

Day 61st

haha... honey ah... you know how many bottles that two of us finished?
THREE BOTTLES!!!
a lot hah? so im writing this while im really now good at all... there are so many stars in front of my eyes hah:D
I asked you for 5 mins in you bday hah? All you said is or you will spend it on him, or your friensd or leave it to your family!! So there's no me inside you plan at all hah? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHA... How stupid i am when spending all the time on you .... lmao...
But anw, i love you so i will the that stupid until i can stop loving you..
But i dont know when's that day yet... but so far.. i just love you more and more everyday:D
i had a quite boring day without anything special....

how about you? It should be a good day hha?

Love you more than yesterday! You drunk beloved!

Entry for 60th day!

Really i dont know why but today i slept all the time...
Here is my secret so i will tell the true feeling hah...
when you say you will go out tonight with a lot of high school friends, i was really ... jealous let say :|
For sure there would be him hah? And for sure all of your friends know about you two... they will ask a lot of questions and also make you two closer hah?
That's why i chose to sleep all day i guess... i dont know why but i become so selfish now i guess :(
But really, i feel so confident with my love for you now ... i dont know why really but it's like nothing could be worse hah :) it has been one month and half since ya left hah... to me it's like a decade =.= but i just love you more and more... only you love me less and less nah =;

anw, magic for today hah:) May i put a kiss on your eyes? Put sugar into your dreams, and put a little bit of my love into your heart... i know your heart is not mine put just let me love you like i used to do, honey hah?

Love you so much <3

Magic for day 59th

Hallo Honey :D do you miss me?
I finally finish my midterms:D Sorry for not writing our secret recently hah... i was too busy :(
Now i have 2 3 days to relax and then again start to fight with all these projects nah :(
I really miss you.... guess that you know hah?
I know you miss me too mah:D but it's getting less and less right?...
To be honest... i really dont feel good when ya with him... jealous... and really happy for you if you happy with him ... but for myself... i feel like im a dump... And i hate the fact that the one who's making you happy is him.. not me...
Anw... A magic for you today hah? I will put it here instead of sending it to you... so that you dont have to text me back when ya read it :) Therefore, you wont feel bad when letting me down :) I made a snowman of you today :) and i also gave it a heart, the heart from me:D So that she will always feel warm, the warmth from my heart hah :) Even though her heart is already belong to someone else... but it's me ^^ I want to make you warm as i can make the snowman warm:D

Love you so much!!!!!

Early bday present for you hah...